Little moments like these reminds me why I love you so much

My sanctuary is away from me, again. This time i'm left with people i've yet to see i could click with.Every day i wish i could be back in the safety of your arms.I find myself surprised of my own strength that i could love a person this much. Its so funny that even when i make him angry, even when im trying to merajuk. i cant with him.we will always end up being okay.and happy.:) And his hug could melt away all the problems and the burdens that are left hanging on my shoulders. I love just being with him.holding his hand,getting to cuddle with him and have him kiss me on the head that, for some reason for me means so much to me.i keep counting the days i get to be with him, just in his arms, makes my day brighter and a lil less stressful. Im so grateful that he's there, to tell me, in his loving voice that everything is gonna be okay even though it might not. but it does.when he says it to me and when i have him by my side. i love you baby.:)

It's been awhilee *aaahhh* (lagu britney spears)

ahahahaha! well.yes.i know its been a very very long time.i have been busy and i dint get the chance to really hold on to the computer and tell you what has been going on with my life.

You know...since i have stopped schooling,i've made plans of how my life would track on in the future. but it seems to be that the more i make plans, the more that it ends up not going the way i planned.at all. Like for example. i wanted to work at VADS and i ended up working at Pd and DARC instead. I wanted to make sure i had time to have fun after working and i end up in a university instead.

Ladies and gentlemen; There is only one thing i can tell you with full confidence now and that is to NOT PLAN. well, at least when it comes to your life. because in the end you know who has the last say right.so before you get brutally dissapointed with yourself for your naive actions, might as well you just take it all in.all the walls, obstacles, craps, shits, and downhills of that particular chapter of your life because you know why? Its all about learning.You are constantly learning and like they all say Experience is the best teacher. no?


Hye , I'm Nur Farahin A'skiah Binti Abdul Hamid and i am a student of UIA, Campus Nilai.
Yes,thats right. in uia. when i initially planned to go to Uitm. so this is whats stopping me from blogging before.being busy of crying, packing,crying,seeing people, writing documents,crying sorting out files, crying, meeting new people, attending group dynamics, falling klutzily in my baju kurung, attending more programme briefings, and crying abit more. yeah thats about it. That was in PJ,when i had my orientation.

Now im at nilai,staying fr the first week where they would be briefing us more on our programme, and explaining things.... i dont like staying at a hostel. i've been repeating that to quite a number of people.i dont like la. im adapting with the place im studying yes but the hostel? hmm.. but at least the toilet is in our dorm.so its better than pj mahallah.a whole lot better.and the environment is freeier,alhamdulilah.so there you go. wish me luck, im gonna go check on other universities at the internet for back up plan. thanks.and will update again if i can.later.loves.

Let it all out...

I'm lost.
Overflowing tears, my eyes are sore and blurry. Blurry,like my future. its been like this for three days in a row. It pains me so.
The screaming,frustration - It eats up in me and I feel a big hole in my chest gets even bigger when i try to solve the puzzle.Crying and sobbing won't help me but that just seems like the only thing i've been doing lately.Its not about the university anymore but the fact that i'd be away...yet again.And this time at a place i dont know with strangers i've never met.Just the thought of it brings tears to my eyes.I'm going to miss my mom the most. She may not know this but she's the best thing in my life. I dont want to miss the little things i do with her,the things that makes me feel like the centre of the world; Her world.

critical thinking

The ugly truth is that after a frustrating day,the fact that you aren't there for me to see and touch and feel better breaks me down.










In conclusion; work is tiring.