millionaire

I want this sooo badd

crappp

all these triton's are driving me nuts..... and the fact of the matter is i fear of the reason why it is . pleasee God,provide me the sanity to think clearlyy..

whoah..

maybe the thing that's pulling me back everytime from freedom is the fact that i'm scared to lose myself. to have no sense of self control. letting go of the reins and letting the road take me wherever it leads. so scared of turbulence. the fact that i could've done something to change that fact. to stop it. people say life is a rollercoaster. but what happens if some technical error happens to it. what if suddenly we lose balance and fall of the tracks in a collision of horror? to be at your worst state and fearing the worst: that you can't get back up.



a rollercoaster.

dear fara;

I've come to realise.. theres so many things in this life that feels so right. but indeed is so wrong for us. the power of our lust to achieve our wants are most of the time not what we truly need.....
Alhamdulilah. i dont feel like going all out anymore. or searching. i'd rather focus on the self now. myself. ... like keeping money to do treatment for my hair. its getting worse.:/ keeping money to buy transparent lenses now. its much cheaper and i want to see my natural colour for once. and i want to fix myself. make myself better. exercise. learn. focus. i need to love me enough. respect my wants and needs. be my own bf for once.:) i know theres people out there. and if things happen, it will happen. but no more trying so hard. its time to sit back, relax. and let the good times roll.

i love you..just wanted to let you know that. :)

holiday

craving for a one at an island... ever since i got out from form 5. with or without friends. it really doesnt matter. as long as i get to bury my feet in the warm sand and see the crystal clear water of the island. wrapping myself in the aura and the windy breeze of the ocean. dancing through my hair. calling me to join in the abyss. ohhh, serenity.

let the games begin

one by one. a step at a time. we got a loooong way to go. :))