Undeniable

Recently, i met someone who used to say to me that he'd marry me one day. who called me his wife. and said i was the only girl who could make him cry. Today, i discovered that he broke up with the next person after me that he also said he'd marry one day, called her his wife and said she was the only girl who could make him cry.  And it suddenly dawned to me, that all these negative energies. the aftermath of every thing good that happens around you. or every negative issue that becomes one of your obstacles in life.  They are needed. And even though we mourn of the evil things that man do on earth; From injustice and corruption to killing and murder and heartache, it was needed. to differentiate what was known to be good and peaceful and calm. and to instill great hope that peace could one day be achievable. The greatest feeling, aside love itself - hope.  we need evil so we can hope, thus having the drive and will to be better than evil - good.

Finally

Wow, it has come long passed since the day i wrote something new. it was unfortunate to have had some problems with posting up the blog as there were many things that i have been through for the last couple of months. -
More or less adventures, heartbreaks, weddings, more weddings. and recently, my journey has found a sparkle in a person i previously met. It was funny that i never noticed it before. but i'm glad i took my time to see what a diamond he turned out to be.
His name is fadzril. who suprisingly made me want to be a better person. so much so that he doesn't realise how much his presence means to me. He saved me. from another downfall. of something i may have realised was bad for me. but denied it either way. He was there for me and together we found comfort in each other. I will always remember how it felt when i realised i had feelings for him. And everyday i count my lucky stars to have finally met a man and not a boy instead...

Besides that, my first sister, Halimatul Saadiah. finally got hitched. to a special individual named Syazwan. the wedding was beautiful. on both sides. i was the maid of honour for both sides as well.

Also, my loving mother, is currently right now going through her umrah. I am so happy for her to at least have part of her dream coming true. though she is not feeling so well, i cant wait for her to come home this tuesday. I finally understood the feeling of annoyance when you come back to a messy home. and how its so hard to maintain it. (yes im blaming my now two brothers at home) -.-

i miss her very much though. can't wait to pick her up later.

Other than that, studies are doing alright. going through first semester of first degree in UIA. The distance between the hostel and the faculty was hard to adapt in but eventually i did. still having typical friends of the same batch.

Looking back through the years of my adolescence. i have come to realise that there was nothing exciting to talk about. Come to think of it. i think my life is pretty stable and dull.

sadly.

My resolution of travelling since completing my high school years has still not been achieved.
Though, hopefully the 3 years in Gombak will be promising in adventures and experience.


i need to have a plan.