4 months.

this was what i wanted to say to you over the phone yesterday but i was too tired sayang.i love you.:)

My love,
he cares without conditions
protects with all his might
and cherishes every memory

My love,
he has standards, ambitions
he is perfect in his imperfections
that only shows he is human
and he loves me with all his heart

My love, I see your efforts of keeping me safe
safe in your arms and safe in your heart

My love, i acknowledge you as you have made your mark
you've succeeded in stealing and making my heart better than anybody else could

Soaked in extacy of your love, a drug i don't mind getting intoxicated by

I want , need , crave for your hands in mine

for your smile to spread on your face
for your arms to wrap around me, and
for you to tell me
how much you love me;tenderly

twenty friggin seconds was what we got

good morning malaysia! =.= its a monday and no i did not go to school today.i came back so tired and all warm and stuff yesterday i got sick the next morning.:/

anyway heres what happened;

yesterday, i woke up at 630 in the morning.took my shower and tralalalala and then picked kevin chuah up at his house at tropicana; one of my teammates. we had 4 students in a school team which consists of two form 4's (kevin chuah, tengku anisah) and two form 5's ( me :D , tan justwin) so then.picked up kevin,otw to school beli nst paper just to brush up on our vocabularies since we would be one of the earliest at school.and then.waited for the other two girls to arrive and we were off exactly at 8.02 a.m . i was already nervous since the other two girls only slept at 1. and i was the one telling them to chill out the whole week and that 'we'll-try-our-best' jig.=.= in the car i was like shitttt! its today.OOO: hahahah.so dah sampai.sunway piramid baru nak bukak.so gelap.but the stage was right below starbucks.the entrance.and it was all nice and dandy.so we saw students scattered everywhere and then there was the briefing.the presenter was nice and all and then she bla bla blated.

and then POM! the competition started.the first batch, i still remember.that chinese dude.he was wearing glasses and looked all smart and stuff.he was wearing white pants and a dark blue blazer! i mean, come on,thats pretty darn smart.:p it would be nice if smkdu tukar colour seluar for the boys.:D anyway,he dint just look smart he IS smart.he spelled everything correct and he got into the finals. then other people went through batch after batch .it was starting to get boring. i was starting to get sleepy and justwin and anisah was checking out a hot guy a row behind us.they were so obvious that guy perasan and he got all shy and stuff.haha.x) and then met shar and mek.and then she took pictures.we had lunch.i was still studying.and then it was our turn.i was like omg omg omg omg! and my name was the first in the batch!!!!xO i mcm ohh noooo.and then went up.i had to go spell.

FIRST ROUND: the first word fr me was glutinous.and then second person was anisah.she dint get her word.poor thing.she worked so hard.but its okay.she got next year.:D and then kevin.he dint get his either.but its okay.he got a cert.and then justwin got it! i was like yeaayyyy!! got gang.:D

SECOND ROUND: i spelled correctly.i think it was satyr. and then evrybody else kena turun except for me and justwin! i was like yeayyy again!

THIRD ROUND: i spelled correctly,justwin dint get her word.and i got into finals. soo yeah.and then was studying summore.

FINALS: was DIFFICULT. :((( it was around 4 something i think.and then we all went up.and we had 3 words to spell.person with the most points becomes the winner.unfortunately i dint win.:( that smart looking chinese dude got it.he got ALL correct.and those words were HARD. the last word i had to spell was presidium.but i spelled it with a 'c' instead of 's'. :((

but we got certs and a goodie bag anyway.so i guess its okay.in the whole it was a tiring but fun day.balik rumah pening kepala gila gila.makan cereal,mandi,suruh mama urut,and then tidur.now..im still having headache.demam macam nak datang balik.but selsema and batuk dah tak ada.


love you.:D

my mind is tumulting again

disturbing? yes. it is.its stressful how all these voices in my head can take control my mind nowadays.tomorrow is the competition.must practice..much love.

hello havoc

guys,school is back.so if i am still blogging constantly then that means i'm not doing what i'm supposed to be doing.work is a done deal.hopefully abg philly wont forget to take my cheque this friday.also hoping i'd get to bank it in before 1.other than that,there is also big news. i never thought i'd get in cause we were so late.and it was so last minute.so i didnt prepare but yes my team got accepted for the spell-it-right challenge for this sunday.at sunway.i am sooo friggin nervous i swear.its so sudden.and i think its live.and i've never done it before i'm panickingg!!!:/ omg om gom gom gom gomg....i've never done it before...!!!!O: haishhoihoih.and i pretty much have to take charge of all this stuff.thank god justwin gonna be my winglady.( :p ) hoh.imdihwidhowihdowdw! nyaaah...and umm..i got results.but will wait for more.love youuu.<3

temp

yes. i'm working for awhile.i know i know, i should be studying and squeezing my brains out but this is just for awhile.i need to get something special.:) anyway.yesterday was a whole day doing off pay slips.god.it was long due but alhamdulillah got to finish it before they ask for it.:D today? filing in the freezer room.i got my shoulder injured terlanggar that besi cupboard thingy and was lifting heavy inactive file filled boxes and got to knpw i could just put those in another yellow file.uighsioudowufhbowuih! and i swear i peed more times than i did yesterday.i feel a lil nervous today i dont know why.will be dropping off at ou again today.need to give deposit.hoping the amount will budge. anyway.should go.almost going to be 1.must be a robot again.=.= toodles~



love,
farawr

i dont mean to feel intimidated. i dont mind change of course because change is inevitable. i just don't want to lose you..then why would i call you my bestfriend right? But it is on your hands.your decision to make whether or not you want to pull me back in.because that's how i feel right now.left out.and i know that i've done my part on putting effort.at least a bit.the dissapointment when i've reminded you so many times, i've booked you so long ago.but you've been forgiven already.i just won't forget.

Treedaze

I love this picture of him. As though our love makes him feel utter freedom, utter bliss; as our harmonic melodious memories takes away all the pain and heartache away.Like the wind, i'll caress his smoothly features. I love every part of him. All of him, literally.From the perfectly structured wings on his back to his every emotional flaw.For which i will fill and complete and perfect it. Like a masterpiece, we will hold each other. He will be my frame and i will be his picture. I will be the breeze that blows ever so softly on his face and he will be the moon that watches over me at night.The feeling that i feel when he calls out to me makes my heart overflow with pride.At this point, i do not care of our differences because i'm determined we will make each other better. It's the feeling when you feel that you've been with this individual for a very long time and yet you still get nervous when you two meet.When he can still give me butterflies in my stomach with just one look.One look that shows so many emotions you know exactly what it means.I know i have love in my life because i have you in my life. I know we are still from different worlds but i don't feel it when i'm with you.All i feel is this excessive amount of adoration that i do not find in anybody else that used to care for my heart.Your love is put on a pedestal for i am truly in love with you. Typing this itself makes my heart ache.I miss his presence even when he is present. I am so used to him like a person used to his own shadow.I am assured now that he will be here for quite a while. I'll try my best to be better than the best. better than the rest.(:

What happened recently? part 2

Saturday a.k.a 30/5/09

Akad Nikah Kak Akmar & Abg Luqman

Today was busy with so many people taking turns with the toilet

and trying to find their scarfs and stuff.

we arrived a lil bit later than the groom

and then it happened...

We had the privillege of having Apryl Chen come down all the way from melbourne

to witness these two love birds marry.:)

After that we had a few drinks.

i had a picture with the bridesmaid, Yasmin and the elder sister; Halimah.

That night,we had the reception on the bride's side.The pictures will be posted when i have them with me.:) i did a speech and played the piano. 2 numbers which were, Getaran Jiwa and Close to you. Something both i have been playing for quite some time but was still nervous cause i dint get to practice a few days before the reception.:/ but without a doubt i still played quite melodiously.:D The speech goes;

Throughout the growing years i'm going through, i could never really understand what love means.But today, during the akad nikah, i witnessed something so beautiful,it was pure.it was true.i saw it in my father's eyes when he spoke to my sister.i saw it in abg luqman's eyes when he teared and i saw it in my sister's eyes when she cried after being so overwhelmed.it was when i felt a burden in my heart that i realized love simply cannot be defined.It works in the most beautiful ways to get to your heart.thats what makes it so special.thats what makes it so unique.And i hope the spark in their eyes, kak akmar n abang luqman will shine forever. and kakak,don't forget to come back home.im gonna miss ya.thank you.:D

What happened recently?

Friday a.k.a 29/5/09

1.Happy teachers day to SMKDU Teachers!

it was nice.we had our performance finally.so nervous.

everybody did their performance well but Jai Ho had an encore.

2.Malam Berinai Kak Akmar

it was in the whole; very nice.

Kak akmar looked gorgeous in her baby blue baju songket.

we all got our hands decorated from Shamani.:)