Come home

Rummaging through memories on a quiet melancholic monday evening. A bittersweet taste of hunger.There is a feeling at a pit of my stomach. It refuses to leave.An unexplainable feeling.A feeling that has never come accrossed untill recently.A thought lingers in my head. Of the future. Of the present. Of the past. Like a unwritten rule.a fact doomed for all of us,for me;to face. I need to change that rule. because rules are made to be broken.

Pd is a place you go to when you're bored of being busy

Its time to stop being obsessed.:)

Droplets of innocence that fell from the sky

Under the watchful gaze of the sky,and the warmth company of the sunshine, i lay staring at a baby sleeping in the master bedroom of Denai Alam's kindergarten. She sleeps so peacefully, this child named Zahra.As i try to memorise the features of her pretty face, i can't help feeling envious of her long eyelashes. In fact, almost all of the children in the school posesses long eyelashes any girl would be envious of.
Suddenly, Little Zahra snored.haha, this little,cute,soft sound escaped from her little mouth which i found to be so amusing.The first time i saw a mini person snore and i wondered if other snorers around the world started just like this.
Surprisingly, i put pride in what i am experiencing now,and i am growing fond of the denai alam kids.Children can surprise you in so many ways in sense of their understanding,maturity and mentality. They are like treasures who don't know what they are worth just yet; untill we show them- with a sufficient amount of patience,dedication and hope of course.

"I'm currently working at port dickson's kindergarten untill mama gets a new clerk"

5 days a week in port dickson

back by friday

Use somebody

This silent call of distress

of my heart

like a lighthouse amidst the vastness of the sea

the cold breeze that haunts my nights and dreams

and brings it fear of possibilities

Possibilities of incidents to come

Of crashing waves and raging tides

of sunken ships

and broken smiles

the thoughts tumulting are not one which i wish of accompanying me through frowning nights.

In fact,i wish to not have them running through my head at all.

and yet,it is happening.

I wont let it break through the walls i have so hardworkingly built.

when i know my heart only wishes to be reassured.

thoughts

Lust leaves a mark in your life, That is certain. This inevitable shadow that follows you and corrodes your senses and yet it is human nature to be attracted to it. How do you really define maturity, i wonder; When there is alot to consider, to ponder and question on nowadays. Innocence is hard to find in this ever-expanding modernised millenium world we live in. It is sad, because even i can feel it.

Teenagers call it peer pressure, but it's wether you realise the consequences that follow like invisible strings attached.

I wonder what makes a man? His decisions? Upon so many variety of choices that comes a benefit to him yet he chooses the path of responsibility. His sense of understanding? To bend his rules but keeping in mind his rules don't break.

good morning, teacher fara.

a new year? yes.

a year i have been itching and excited for? no.

a year tht goes by smooth sailing? i hope so.

i started the new year with the warm presence of my boyfriend by my side.
it was definitely an overwhelming experience if you may say so.(;

im currently working as a kindergarten teacher.well,assistant la. but yeah.
working fr my mum.it trains me to be patient.something i really need.
i find myself growing fond of these children.well at least untill they start crying.;/
i'll try and find some other job later when the school is operating smoothly.


other than that,cant help the feeling of having this feeling in the pit of my stomach.it makes my body all giddy fr some reason.