is.....like 1st sem all over again. minusing waking up at 8 everyday; its just now 2 days.
and instead of going back at 5 everyday, its jst some days.
and i dont have a group or a bunch of new friends in my class.
am not initiating or putting effort to communicate much, because well honestly i dont really give a rats ass anymore.
as long as i got friends outside of class to get me through the day, i am fine the way it is. yes,i may look like an antisocial in class, being buried with my storybook if im not listening to the lecturer. but i sure as hell dont care what they think anymore. as long as i cooperate when it comes to forming teams and making presentations and such,to get my marks well and fine, im in.
because , reality check people. they're only there right now.the fact that they will be there later is highly improbable and should be questioned... i dont mind being alone in class rather than having friends that are fake. i'm tired of that high school drama and shit.
real friends are hard to find, and i dont mind waiting to find them. because when i do, i know they will be one of the best things in my life.
so yea... unfrtunately so many plastics in my class. not being judgemental. and i know i can probably be friends with them if i wantd to.cause they're mostly from subang,shah alam and all that.but ntah..they've got their group. and i know what its like, im not about to get myself into high school drama. thank you very much.
loves.
Monday, November 1, 2010
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Truly;
Like the river flowing endlessly to the sea,
Like the sea breeze dancing in your hair,
Like the bright open blue skies that spreads peace everywhere,
That's how i feel when i think about you.
Like the fiery sun drowning into the horizon.
Like the stillness of the waters that hides secrets of their mystery depths
Like the waves that slowly stumbles into the shore.
In a slow rythmic lullaby
That's how your voice makes me feel.
Like the moon floating above the black mirror
As it befriends a million million stars
Like the way it glows brighter when envied
That's how i feel when you look at me.
Like the wet still air that you breathe in the morning dusk
As the eye of the heavens peek its light rays to your eyes
Like the view and the feeling in your heart of the beginning of a new day,
Thats what i feel when you tell me,
that You love me.
You love me..Truly;
Like the sea breeze dancing in your hair,
Like the bright open blue skies that spreads peace everywhere,
That's how i feel when i think about you.
Like the fiery sun drowning into the horizon.
Like the stillness of the waters that hides secrets of their mystery depths
Like the waves that slowly stumbles into the shore.
In a slow rythmic lullaby
That's how your voice makes me feel.
Like the moon floating above the black mirror
As it befriends a million million stars
Like the way it glows brighter when envied
That's how i feel when you look at me.
Like the wet still air that you breathe in the morning dusk
As the eye of the heavens peek its light rays to your eyes
Like the view and the feeling in your heart of the beginning of a new day,
Thats what i feel when you tell me,
that You love me.
You love me..Truly;
Monday, September 20, 2010
happy birthday to youu
16....17....18...
days,ages,years.
These numbers are running faster than ever.
I didn't feel a gush of wind. nor the earth shake. nor lightning striking. nor the movement of the orbits around me.
I wave to the days and nights that passes me by. This year was even faster for some reason.
Sands of time is running out faster on me, on us.
I can barely feel the moment passing me by. every moment is so precious to me now.
And now, even birthdays dont mean much anymore.
I pray and hope.
Make me feel like 18 is worth it. i want to spend the next 12 months doing something
meaningful.living life by the moment and not just observing it this time.
i want to feel.... alive. living this world that is so wonderful. so many things to see, to discover.
to love.
let me appreciate every taste, feel,sight and sound of everything combined.
let me love what and who is loving me with equal amount of compassion.
give me the strength to realise the thing that i have taken advantage on.
i will appreciate and love with my whole heart.
Give me the strength of sincerity.
Amin.
days,ages,years.
These numbers are running faster than ever.
I didn't feel a gush of wind. nor the earth shake. nor lightning striking. nor the movement of the orbits around me.
I wave to the days and nights that passes me by. This year was even faster for some reason.
Sands of time is running out faster on me, on us.
I can barely feel the moment passing me by. every moment is so precious to me now.
And now, even birthdays dont mean much anymore.
I pray and hope.
Make me feel like 18 is worth it. i want to spend the next 12 months doing something
meaningful.living life by the moment and not just observing it this time.
i want to feel.... alive. living this world that is so wonderful. so many things to see, to discover.
to love.
let me appreciate every taste, feel,sight and sound of everything combined.
let me love what and who is loving me with equal amount of compassion.
give me the strength to realise the thing that i have taken advantage on.
i will appreciate and love with my whole heart.
Give me the strength of sincerity.
Amin.
Sunday, September 19, 2010
the warmth of your gaze
the palm of your wave- bibio
There is no denying how much i love you
I dont have to create the same path, the same fate as previous relationships had been.
But i admit every relationship was different in its own way.
Each teaching me different things. different life lessons.
But i am still in the process of learning.
learning you and learning life with you by my side.
Yes,God holds our fate. but we can change things for the better.
And as i promised, i'd hold on as long as i can. as long as it takes.
our relationship is different. something i need to remind myself again.
And again,you surprise me. we surprise each other at what the thought of the end could do for us. There is a change and it is a change i will cherish and thank God for. For i am hopelessly falling in love with you.all over again. It feels so magical and yet it feels familliar. but better. And i love it so much. Everything you do. i can feel; your gaze, a simple touch of the hand, or a kiss on the forhead. it means something true. defining a meaning that punctures deeper to my soul.
and i love you. i love you so much for realising, for making me love you even more. for making every moment together even more precious as before. maybe this was needed to realise both of us.
Life is an adventure. with so many ups and downs. And i will share this with you beside me.
I love you.
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
tested faith
It's a sacrifice you thought needed.It's a jumpstart to where things started.It's the feel in your stomach when we smile to each other.It's the rush in your veins when we kiss and cuddle.The chemical x that is running out is just simply being refilled.To let go is something i don't want taken as option.I know just how much you value.. and you value so high to me. sometimes i feel selfish. i know you don't want this.but i would rather have this than lose you to my slowly dying feelings. and i know how i am.and some things don't change as much as i want them to. even when you mean so much to me. you mean so much to me sayang.i don't mean to hurt you so much. i know all i've been doing lately is that. but you know me and you know me well. It's been awhile since i've been flying. and i promise if i can't fly properly i will come back. i dont want to jeopardise what i already have.i promise i will come back. I love you so much Zunaidi Alias.
Sunday, August 29, 2010
the beauty of imagination
i close my eyes,
i feel the wind breeze,
softly sculpting my face,
as it dances through my hair,
i smell the salty scent of the ocean waves
as it crashes to the sea,potraying constant rebel,
i grasp the sand and feel its coarseness between my sensitive fingers,
acknowledging its texture
lying on a hammock,
withnessed by the great blue sky,
and warmth of the sun rays that melted away all my problems and insecurities
i felt sane
.....
...
..
.
i open my eyes
im in my dorm
surrounded by walls, doors
dormmates,books,
exams,
strangers.
i need a holiday.
i feel the wind breeze,
softly sculpting my face,
as it dances through my hair,
i smell the salty scent of the ocean waves
as it crashes to the sea,potraying constant rebel,
i grasp the sand and feel its coarseness between my sensitive fingers,
acknowledging its texture
lying on a hammock,
withnessed by the great blue sky,
and warmth of the sun rays that melted away all my problems and insecurities
i felt sane
.....
...
..
.
i open my eyes
im in my dorm
surrounded by walls, doors
dormmates,books,
exams,
strangers.
i need a holiday.
Saturday, August 21, 2010
god!
im starting to get why my boyfriend rarely updates his blog.
sorry people, but not only do i not hve time but i also dont have free access to my stuffs.:/
so yeahh..anyway. finals looks pretty near right about now.and i gotta make sure i settle all notes,assignments,tasks and reports before my revision period. WHICH SO HAPPENS TO BE DURING RAYAA FYI PEOPLE! SHOOTT MEEEE!!!
sorry people, but not only do i not hve time but i also dont have free access to my stuffs.:/
so yeahh..anyway. finals looks pretty near right about now.and i gotta make sure i settle all notes,assignments,tasks and reports before my revision period. WHICH SO HAPPENS TO BE DURING RAYAA FYI PEOPLE! SHOOTT MEEEE!!!
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