tiger lily

The weather lately has been partially melancholic. Almost radiating the aura and mixing it with the chemistry of my feelings nowadays. What i am going through though, i realised, is what so many do. sme going through even worse, some not even coming out alive. After this epic phenomena. it has slowly digested into my conscious mind that there is no need to mourn, over spilt milk. whats done is done. some may regret. some may hate. but to be able to forgive is the attribute of the strong, especially when you are able to forgive yourself. Forgive yourself. We are nothing but humans, and we can't avoid from making mistakes. Love... is not meant to be mean. it does not mean to be undeniably cruel in the end. Love is what you could make out of it. some may not go the way you plan. some, you can't even have. but look at what you already have. right in front of you. This form of unconditional love could be so beautiful. if only people realised it sooner. we are greedy. it is in our nature. we make mistakes. but i'm alright. and everything's going to be alright. The decision we make shows who we are. There is no time machine, no retrack of an event. no more jumping into the rabbit hole. we're going to crawl if we have to. because life still moves on. and you should too..

new year's resolution, to not be so damn gullible.

what a waste of guilt.

Thank you God.

flap your wings, take a deep breath, of the air around you, the misty air flowing through your lungs, appreciate its presence flowing through your lungs, pumping oxygen through your veins. appreciate the fact that such a simple thing such as oxygen is the reason why you can move your hands, flex your muscles, make you walk , talk, think, sleep. live. live your life. look at the things surrounding you. wonder where they came from and the small lil particles that helped it be its true form. go outside, look at the sky, feel the wind dancing in your hair, the grumble of the earth beneath you. such a powerful force that is letting us walk all over it. the greenery, wonder why how its happening and doing what its doing. wonder what would happen if one day they took a break? Alhamdulilahh. Thank you Allah

my currently 2nd fav song.

king of anything - sara bareilles

keep drinking coffee, stare me down across the table
while i look outside
so many things i'd say if only i were able
but i just keep quiet and count the cars that pass by

you've got opinions, man
we're all entitled to
but i never asked

so let me thank you for your time
and try not to waste any more of mine
get out of here fast

i hate to break it to you babe
but im not drowning
there's no one here to save

who cares if you disagree
you are not me
who made you king of anything

so, you dare tell me who to be
who died and made you king of anything

you sound so innocent
all full of good intent
swear you know best

but you expect me to
jump up on board with you
ride off into your delusional sunset

i'm not the one who's lost
with no direction oh
but you'll never see

you're so busy making masks
with my name on it in all caps
you've got the talking down
just not the listening

chorus

all my life i've tried to make everybody happy while i just hurt and hide waiting for someone to tell me it's my turn to decide


chorusx2


let me hold your crown babe;

sticks and stone may break my bones,

but words will never harm me.

new hair do

needed some moral boosting. and a trim ofcourse. heh

sweet disposition

sweet disposition
never too soon,
oh, reckless abandon,
like no ones watching you

a moment , a love
a dream aloud,
a kiss, a cry,
our rights, our wrongs,

a moment a love,
a dream loud
a moment a love
a dream aloud

so stay there because i'll be coming over
and while our blood's still young
it's so young
it runs
and we won't stop untill it's over
won't stop to surrender

songs of desperation
i played them for you

a moment a love
a dream aloud
a kiss a cry
our rights our wrongs

a moment a love
a dream aloud
a kiss a cry