Little moments like these reminds me why I love you so much

My sanctuary is away from me, again. This time i'm left with people i've yet to see i could click with.Every day i wish i could be back in the safety of your arms.I find myself surprised of my own strength that i could love a person this much. Its so funny that even when i make him angry, even when im trying to merajuk. i cant with him.we will always end up being okay.and happy.:) And his hug could melt away all the problems and the burdens that are left hanging on my shoulders. I love just being with him.holding his hand,getting to cuddle with him and have him kiss me on the head that, for some reason for me means so much to me.i keep counting the days i get to be with him, just in his arms, makes my day brighter and a lil less stressful. Im so grateful that he's there, to tell me, in his loving voice that everything is gonna be okay even though it might not. but it does.when he says it to me and when i have him by my side. i love you baby.:)

It's been awhilee *aaahhh* (lagu britney spears)

ahahahaha! well.yes.i know its been a very very long time.i have been busy and i dint get the chance to really hold on to the computer and tell you what has been going on with my life.

You know...since i have stopped schooling,i've made plans of how my life would track on in the future. but it seems to be that the more i make plans, the more that it ends up not going the way i planned.at all. Like for example. i wanted to work at VADS and i ended up working at Pd and DARC instead. I wanted to make sure i had time to have fun after working and i end up in a university instead.

Ladies and gentlemen; There is only one thing i can tell you with full confidence now and that is to NOT PLAN. well, at least when it comes to your life. because in the end you know who has the last say right.so before you get brutally dissapointed with yourself for your naive actions, might as well you just take it all in.all the walls, obstacles, craps, shits, and downhills of that particular chapter of your life because you know why? Its all about learning.You are constantly learning and like they all say Experience is the best teacher. no?


Hye , I'm Nur Farahin A'skiah Binti Abdul Hamid and i am a student of UIA, Campus Nilai.
Yes,thats right. in uia. when i initially planned to go to Uitm. so this is whats stopping me from blogging before.being busy of crying, packing,crying,seeing people, writing documents,crying sorting out files, crying, meeting new people, attending group dynamics, falling klutzily in my baju kurung, attending more programme briefings, and crying abit more. yeah thats about it. That was in PJ,when i had my orientation.

Now im at nilai,staying fr the first week where they would be briefing us more on our programme, and explaining things.... i dont like staying at a hostel. i've been repeating that to quite a number of people.i dont like la. im adapting with the place im studying yes but the hostel? hmm.. but at least the toilet is in our dorm.so its better than pj mahallah.a whole lot better.and the environment is freeier,alhamdulilah.so there you go. wish me luck, im gonna go check on other universities at the internet for back up plan. thanks.and will update again if i can.later.loves.

Let it all out...

I'm lost.
Overflowing tears, my eyes are sore and blurry. Blurry,like my future. its been like this for three days in a row. It pains me so.
The screaming,frustration - It eats up in me and I feel a big hole in my chest gets even bigger when i try to solve the puzzle.Crying and sobbing won't help me but that just seems like the only thing i've been doing lately.Its not about the university anymore but the fact that i'd be away...yet again.And this time at a place i dont know with strangers i've never met.Just the thought of it brings tears to my eyes.I'm going to miss my mom the most. She may not know this but she's the best thing in my life. I dont want to miss the little things i do with her,the things that makes me feel like the centre of the world; Her world.

critical thinking

The ugly truth is that after a frustrating day,the fact that you aren't there for me to see and touch and feel better breaks me down.










In conclusion; work is tiring.

syukur alhamdulilah

i finally got a job. and the best parts of it is the privilleges that comes with it. i'll be working at DARC soon. its suppose to be something like eagle ranch.its near my hse.at denai alam.and so im supposed to be handling the PR stuff there.and the boss there,Terry says that since im working here.i can train with the horses for free.:)))))))))))x1000000
hooohoo! and they're otw to making a gym there and i can use that too.so how unbelievably awesome is that?? :D

i feel like im wearing the coolest kicks in town right now.:p
soo yeah.am at pd.taking my p card and will be otw back home.

peace lovers.

Appreciation

Recently i could say i am quite lucky. i am. and i am utmostly grateful to Allah for blessing me with good news;






.I got fairly good grades. i'm still proud that i didnt fail anything.







.I passed my JPJ test! YESS! :D ohh alhamdulilah. such a relief i tell you. it was soo nerve wrecking because i was so worried about my bukit.i shit you not, i peed about 5 times and went to the toilet about 3 times before i did my exam.>.<>






.and recently,i saw ayahlang. He gave me money to buy me a new phone.for my results for spm. thanks to papa's talking. I desperately needed a new phone actually. abangs phone was not exactly in good shape and i dont blame it all on the phone.i knw it was partly my fault fr dropping it a couple of times but still. i had to read text messages at the mirror because the fonts were terbalik. sheesh.







soo , yesterday,went out with edi.. talked and figured out what to buy. so after some thought and comparing, i bought this baby;

Sony ericsson Yari.

hehe. my 2nd phone that i got that was bought. others were pretty much passed down.but what the hey ey?;/ i always thought i'd buy a nokia the next time i buy a phone.They were the in thing that time. which unfortunately was a loooong time ago.they say xpress music wasnt so good.even though i wanted to get that actually.but takpelah.i'm very much satisified with my phone right now. it is also pretty much my most expensive. but given the fact that i only have two hps that were bought.im very much grateful that ayahlang gave the money fr me.i dont think i could afford one of these on my own.-.-

so ta ta da da! apparently edi said its like a mini psp.
its got cool games. its like wii too. hehe. he was the one who said i've got an i pod already so dont need all these phones tht specialised in music.which is correct.and i dont want to get a phone that i wouldnt exactly used the applications.like blackberryberry and all that.which for me personally,is more like for work.and so many people are using that nowadays.i dint wanna go with the trend.the one i dont really have was a camera.so this one has 5 megapixels and according to papa he said tht would pretty much suffice.so all in all. im very happy i got this.:)

swan

Like the sunset,you dawn on me.
This feeling, overpowering,overtaking my senses.
I float amidst the haze of our memories, clouding over my mind.
this feeling is undefined.
and yet, compatible to yours.
you need to know i feel what you feel baby.
that it pains me and sometimes it even makes me cry.
but this feeling makes me feel so alive.
And being with you,in your arms is all i ask for.
Its becoming more dangerous when you are needed more and more.
But the warmth,the security; Do you know you bring out the best in me?
Your my star , no matter where you are.
And wherever i'll be, i know you're with me.