critical thinking

The ugly truth is that after a frustrating day,the fact that you aren't there for me to see and touch and feel better breaks me down.










In conclusion; work is tiring.

syukur alhamdulilah

i finally got a job. and the best parts of it is the privilleges that comes with it. i'll be working at DARC soon. its suppose to be something like eagle ranch.its near my hse.at denai alam.and so im supposed to be handling the PR stuff there.and the boss there,Terry says that since im working here.i can train with the horses for free.:)))))))))))x1000000
hooohoo! and they're otw to making a gym there and i can use that too.so how unbelievably awesome is that?? :D

i feel like im wearing the coolest kicks in town right now.:p
soo yeah.am at pd.taking my p card and will be otw back home.

peace lovers.

Appreciation

Recently i could say i am quite lucky. i am. and i am utmostly grateful to Allah for blessing me with good news;






.I got fairly good grades. i'm still proud that i didnt fail anything.







.I passed my JPJ test! YESS! :D ohh alhamdulilah. such a relief i tell you. it was soo nerve wrecking because i was so worried about my bukit.i shit you not, i peed about 5 times and went to the toilet about 3 times before i did my exam.>.<>






.and recently,i saw ayahlang. He gave me money to buy me a new phone.for my results for spm. thanks to papa's talking. I desperately needed a new phone actually. abangs phone was not exactly in good shape and i dont blame it all on the phone.i knw it was partly my fault fr dropping it a couple of times but still. i had to read text messages at the mirror because the fonts were terbalik. sheesh.







soo , yesterday,went out with edi.. talked and figured out what to buy. so after some thought and comparing, i bought this baby;

Sony ericsson Yari.

hehe. my 2nd phone that i got that was bought. others were pretty much passed down.but what the hey ey?;/ i always thought i'd buy a nokia the next time i buy a phone.They were the in thing that time. which unfortunately was a loooong time ago.they say xpress music wasnt so good.even though i wanted to get that actually.but takpelah.i'm very much satisified with my phone right now. it is also pretty much my most expensive. but given the fact that i only have two hps that were bought.im very much grateful that ayahlang gave the money fr me.i dont think i could afford one of these on my own.-.-

so ta ta da da! apparently edi said its like a mini psp.
its got cool games. its like wii too. hehe. he was the one who said i've got an i pod already so dont need all these phones tht specialised in music.which is correct.and i dont want to get a phone that i wouldnt exactly used the applications.like blackberryberry and all that.which for me personally,is more like for work.and so many people are using that nowadays.i dint wanna go with the trend.the one i dont really have was a camera.so this one has 5 megapixels and according to papa he said tht would pretty much suffice.so all in all. im very happy i got this.:)

swan

Like the sunset,you dawn on me.
This feeling, overpowering,overtaking my senses.
I float amidst the haze of our memories, clouding over my mind.
this feeling is undefined.
and yet, compatible to yours.
you need to know i feel what you feel baby.
that it pains me and sometimes it even makes me cry.
but this feeling makes me feel so alive.
And being with you,in your arms is all i ask for.
Its becoming more dangerous when you are needed more and more.
But the warmth,the security; Do you know you bring out the best in me?
Your my star , no matter where you are.
And wherever i'll be, i know you're with me.

One more try

Like a boat floating calmly amidst the vastness of the deep blue sea. I realise life has too many choices.directions for us to choose.And no one else can make them except you. you are alone in your own journey.it is in our hands as long as it can be fixed.

Thoughts;

-I miss him.very much.

-i need to finish this driving thing asap. i need to start working again and keep aside money.
for emergencies,credits,hangouts,shopping,presents,mama,holidays.

-i cant go out often anymore.or late...
since theres a baby in the house.
they're saying im not putting some sort of contribution.

-I need to ace that bukit.

-I need to practice driving more often.

-Im freakishly broke.

-I'm tired even though i woke up late today.

-I'm anxious about my application to uitm.

-I'm hoping and praying i'm taking the right direction by taking tesl at uitm.

-I need a job.i need money.

-I'm considering about working while studying to get some extra cash on the sidelines. i dont want to ask from mama.it's kind of sufferring to ask someone of something they can't usually give.i end up sounding like the heartless one,you knw wht i mean?


- i pray i get to do the jpj test successfully.i dont have money to pay if i fail.

-omgoodness im so obsessed with cash.=.=

later la you guys.ish

and then there was Adam Danial

Adam Daniel B Luqman is my b e a utiful baby nephew that recently was born on the 13th of March at 921 pm like tht i think.hehe.he's so white and cute and so tiny.:O i was like damn.your such a tiny human.which also made me feel so grateful that Allah blessed us with this tiny gift.i will do what i can to be his utmost favourite aunty.;) i cant stop holding him.;O

and...i was so excited that i frgot to tell you what i got fr my spm results!

urgh...time nak pergi tu mcm tut tut gila. Abang was sooo not helping! he was like whispering in my ear spm spm spm. i was likee aaaaa .:/ anyway my fingers trembling, my heart pounding against my chest and after all tht cold sweat.i got 4 as 3 bs and 2 cs. i was so overwhelmed though,i kinda cried.for like 30 seconds, cause joy was overflowing through my veins. i really didnt expect to get 4 as. and i thought i'd get a fail. but syukur alhamdulilah. it's not bad.though it might not be alot bt im very grateful fr the results i got.:)) so anyway,driving class is tmrw. i gta stay at pd till sat. fri ada school trip so i gotta help. loves!

Ohh my.

so as i lay on my bed in this humid room of mine in denai alam. i start to think of what i'm about to face very soon. spm results.

damnn.. crap. i thought i'd get all scared next week but now that it's on the 11th im forced to become scared and giddy.hish...so uncool.i stopped at pd already.with working and helping mama.but im coming down pd once in a while fr the driving lessons and tests and etc.

i misss bf even more nowadays.and esp miss najwa cause havent seen her in a while.i gues si'll be seieng my girls next week too.fr the spm results.mann..this is SOO uncool!!!!! xO